Doctor appointment tomorrow - plastic surgeon. It's just a regular check up, but I'm hoping we can start talking about planning for the next surgery. It will be a relief to get the permanent implants in place.
What am I relieving? I don't really know. The doctor can't tell me they'll feel any better than the ones I have now, but I'm hoping that's the case. Hoping they'll feel a little more natural, softer. That's the physical aspect of it. Maybe the relief I seek is to close this chapter and move on.
Moving on, what is that? Do I forget about what's happened to me over the past 10 months? 10 months - that seems like such a short amount of time. It's not even a year yet! It's hard to explain how it feels - in some ways things are still so fresh, but in others it feels like a distant memory.
No, I'll never forget. The memory will soften as the time grows longer but it will never go away. I don't want it to.
1 comment:
Before you know it your final surgery will be over and you will be able to write the final chapter on your past 10 months. You are a fighter Mary! I am so glad you are still doing this blog! Lisa
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